Friday, 28 April 2017

Lets talk anxiety! πŸ’­

Hey guys, so today I'm going to talk about what I personally feel are my biggest anxieties. Some of you may feel the same or have similar and if you do please, pretty please share you coping ways with me because sometimes it can be so overwhelming.
Situations that make me feel anxious are when/or if I pronounce someones name wrong or a word, especially in front of someone who knows how to pronounce it. I then become all hot and flustered, try to laugh it off, then when alone feel like a complete idiot for not knowing. Eventually this feeling goes away, usually the next day, but can come back to haunt me randomly in a couple of months or even years. My mind will be like "hey remember when you said this instead of that" πŸ™„ and I'm just like yup, not going to forget how to say it now!
This next one could be the most common one I'm not sure, but it's time keeping. I have to arrive early or it feels like the wold is going to end, no joke. I HATE being late. It makes me feel like it will go against me for the rest of my life, say if I arrived 5 minutes late to work or an appointment, even getting the kids out to school on time in the morning we have to leave at a certain time or it becomes all doom and gloom, rushing around panicking that the door will be closed before we get there. However that is never the case. We get there, the door isn't closed or I have 10 minutes to spare at work.
Now this next one I guess is sort of related to time keeping, it's not having a plan for the day. It can really throw me and I end up going into a 'funny mood' where I just don't know what to do with myself, because I have nothing to do or  I haven't done what I felt I should've done by a certain time. I can shut myself away from the world and just go blank, even if I really don't want to, it can't be helped.
Now I'm not diagnosed with anxiety, but I am diagnosed with cyclothymia which is a type of mood disorder that is similar to bipolar, but in no way as severe. I do wonder if that's why sometimes it feels so much more overwhelming than other times.
I know a lot of people don't like to talk about these things in person, but if you ever do, I'm here 😊 I find it easier to open up to someone I don't personally know and not in person.
Anyway, that's it for this post, I hope it may help at least one person knowing they are not alone in these situation/feelings.

take care xo


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